high heels <3 hangbags <3 fashion <3> shopping <3 sushi, korean food, macroons <3 hanging out with my boys and girls <3 late nightlife of partying with my boys and girls <3 cuddling with my lao gong <3
Miss Baybee Chic <3
liars, betrayal, players and cheaters
I wish I didn’t waste all those times talking to you or thinking about you. I wish I didn’t worry or cared about all the times you ignored me. I wish I never got excited everytime you made me feel special, I wish I never believed every word you said. I wish I never got my hopes high for you. And I wish I never kept trying and trying, knowing I would just go through the same thing. Because in the end, the one that gets hurt isn’t you. It’s me.
I don’t know whats right. I don’t know whats wrong. I only know the pain that comes from waiting for you for so long. All I can do is wait for you to come back to me with the burden that I carry everywhere I go. But I don’t count the teardrops that I cried while your away, because I know deep in my heart, you’ll be back someday.
I heard they finally found you and your currently staying at your friends. When JM told me, all I said was “oh okay..”. What kind of reaction do you want me to show or words to even say to it especially when the boss asked me “have you found your lao gong yet?”? What do you want me to say? I don’t even know if I had any emotions that day. I was so sick and tired. In order to get the pain out and not think about you, I’ve did things I had never done before. Then I find out how much you like me and love me even when I doubted you in the beginning. This made it worst than not able to find you. To tell you the truth, after all this happened I don’t even think you actually feel that way. Because if you DID love me and like me THIS MUCH, you wouldn’t had hide and make me worry about you DAY AND NIGHT. Your hiding from me because you don’t want me to stop you from doing your business. Honestly, I don’t care if you do or don’t because in the end I chose you. I chose you for a reason and no matter what happens or what you want to do, I’ll always stay by your side because I’m not leaving you. Why can’t you understand this? Why do you have to make this hard for me? Just face me. But by the time you come and find me, I won’t be in NY anymore because I’m leaving on the 23rd which is our 2 month.
